Byantuyo Rahim

it was all a game
and all you seeked for was fame
never was i your fave
but you left me in daze
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since immemorial it's been tough but
the both of you have been there thru' all
the troubles we have gone thru'
and the alarming times we have passed thru'
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We are befogged
Since immemorial
We've waited, now
We are impecunious
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You see, that pool seems so shallow at first,
We rarely think twice before diving in—
But beneath its surface lies something profound,
Something abstract, opaque, yet unseen.
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Do you remember Skyle Railey? I mean the one from Smile 2. It's weird how her film's song relates to life, right? It's like I feel it was sung for us, the souls that are living equations. The way she says it—we are out of our minds, and the problem is always ours.

We give in so much—the affection we offer is like a whole ocean, where plants sprout from love. We give our whole realm, only meant for us, and we end up wrecked, moving around in times when our hearts are shattered. We're left with remnants of what we once called love, moving in the dark abyss of the present.
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i am 17 yet the weight of time feels heavier than my years, i love the water -swimming is the only place i feel weightless
Where thoughts and fears drown,
And i can breath in a world where nothing weighs me down,
i talk a lot,
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In this dark room. I curl my self and,
I scream out but the echoes return to me,
I whimper and shiver, a quake down my spine,
I can't seem to define this one this time,
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I want to move to alpaca where the breeze comes
A place where the ocean tides break
I want to feel every atom of the wind
Breath it in and spread my arms out wide
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You know just like the ocean,
Where waves go back and come back to was the sand away,
Is the same way you are to me -like
Every time you come you pick something
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I look back at the times I smiled,
When joy and hope once reconciled.
The times my smile lit up the rooms,
Now silence haunts their hollowed tombs.
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I need someone who will sacrifice their time,
Who'll stand by my side through the steepest climb.
A soul so gentle, yet strong and true,
Who'll make me feel home, no matter the hue.
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Do you enjoy the power you wield,
Keeping me bound, my wounds unhealed?
A cycle of love, where I come back to you,
Only to face the same bitter truth.
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In twilight's glow, I found your gaze,
A fiery warmth, a golden haze.
Your smile, a song, a gentle art,
It lit the corners of my heart.
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I tread lightly,
Afraid of the warmth that feels so fleeting.
The scars of my past whisper reminders—
"You were nothing but a fleeting convenience."
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I am afeard that for deeds done by me,
Or acts amiss, thou'lt judge and turn from thee.
Mine heart dost quail, lest I should lose thy grace,
And wingless be, bereft of thy embrace.
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In times when the inners burn,
When blood rushes like dash,
And in a flash of time my inners burn,
Everything flares with in,
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The first time I heard your voice,
It felt like a wave of happiness crashing into my life.
My heart was the beach, and your words were the gentle swash,
Bringing with them a glow I hadn't felt in ages.
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With the swash pushed to shove,
At a distance I looked at you I used to adore.
In a tick my mind fused to feel what you bore at heart.
I shut my eyes and let my soul roam,
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Shall this last for eternity,
For in this loop,
This has failed to end,
Left in agony,
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