Wishful Thinking Poem by Saii Lynn

I only want to be with you
Only to be loved by you
It used to be all I needed was me
But since you've come around
All I need is you.
It'll never matter anyway
You can't see me and you
Never will(this kills me)

Now I get to be with you
But I will never be loved by you
You're still all I need
But I'm not what you need.
It doesn't matter, I don't
Matter.

Now you're mine
but only as a friend.
Your love I have
But only as a friend.
You need me
But only as a friend.
I matter
But only as a friend.

I want only to be with you
Only loved by you
I still need you and only you
We are friends, what more could I
ask for?
I got what I wanted, (though it's not what I wanted)
I (Why do I feel so sad, I have you don't I?)
Love (Why do I feel so hurt, you love me don't you?)
You (Why do I feel so useless, you need me don't you?)
So Much, It's Killing Me.

You say I'm the bestest friend
You could ever have (Why do I do this to myself?)
That's all, friends, nothing more.
I should be ok with it, shouldn't I? (I'm not)
It's Ok, I'm Ok with it.
Friends. Until The End Right?

Now I'm here in my room, alone.
(I love you, It's killing me.)
My wrists are bleeding, What happened?
(It's killing me)
I feel dizzy I can't move, What happened?
(It's killing me)

I'm tired, I'm going to rest (I Love You)
Friends is all we will ever be.
I see you running near, tears in your eyes.
'What's wrong? ' I try to say but
Nothing comes out.
I try to tell you
Not to cry, to tell you that
I love you so much it hurts.
.Nothing.

My eyes get heavy
But I try to fight against it.
'I Love You', I finally say
But I don't think you hear.
I'm Sorry.
I don't know what happened.

Friends.
Until the end. Right?