My thoughts are running twice as fast
But I seem to be going twice as slow
Trying to look though this window
That is clouded with doubt
I see an image
Somewhere on the other side
I can’t make it out
How I wish these clouds would clear
I am fighting
With everything I have
I’ve never wanted to see something happen this bad
I don’t even know what to think
Is it an image of fact
Or an mirage
Like water falling
Not a waterfall
I tell myself one thing
But I know I want another
I know it makes things worse
Yet you think it’s for the better
I know that through this window
There’s something more
Unwilling to share itself
But waiting to be let out
Then again
I must remember
That this window
Sits in a shadow of doubt
I do not know what else to say
Other than it tears me up inside
To see things so strong
Be forced subside
I see there’s something more
But I can’t quite make it out
And every time I reach for your help
There is none to find
How it would be lovely to be able to walk away
But I am curious to find
That missing part
On the other side
That thing that nags
That thing that hides
That thing is so annoying
So why is it trying to talk to me
Pulling me in
Like an ant to a trap
So drawn to it
But in the end
It will kill you
I don’t know if I want to know
But I do know I do
However I must remember
This clouded window I see through
Sits within a shadow of doubt
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem