Why Can'T I Be? Poem by Shilesha Johnson

If a person tells you they don’t want to be in your life then you shouldn’t want them to be
And if that is the case then why can’t that be me?
Why can’ I feel that way
Why can’t I jus allow a person to walk away?
Why can’t I jus get over things quickly?
Why do I always feel the need?
Why do I always feel the urge?
Why can’t I allow things to submerge?
And leave things as are
Why do I have such a big heart?
Why do I always care way too much?
Why can’t I just be like everyone else and give up?
I want to be that person so why can’t I be
I guess that’s because that’s not in my character
That just ISN’T me
And no matter how hard I would try, I would always come back
Because I could never be like you and act like that
I could never Act like I don’t care
And always fail to be there
And although I’m still that person
I’m not always going to be here
I made a decision
And sticking to my word is my mission
You are no longer in vision
And you are no longer in sight
Being friends like I wanted is no longer in mind late at night
Forgetting you is
And although that’s not who I am
That’s who I HAVE to be
And YOU made it that way SO THANK YOURSELF
AND SAY HELLO
To the new me