Who, Then, Will I Be Poem by Danny Speicher

My mind is shattered apart in pieces
And fear reigns as I ponder what comes next
As yet another of life's dreams ceases
Each day I don't know if I'll be perplexed

And through it all by a strange stroke of fate
She's been here, at home, with me while she heals
First, caring for her as she found her gait
Now, reversed; a moment of crumpled steel

And in my fear, I fear her leaving me
When that one last leg of support is gone
How will I cope? And who, then, will I be?
That first day she's not here at the dawn?

Never have women found me suitable
To stay with me to be my loving wife
Friends have left, but she remained immutable
As family have distanced from my life

And in my fear, I fear her leaving me
When that one last leg of support is gone
How will I cope? And who, then, will I be?
That first day she's not here at the dawn?

I've lost fundamental support before
But, I always had her to prop me up
Now, only her; my last anchor on shore
Soon adrift; last moment for a closeup

Because without her I know I'll sail blind
Because without her the compass is lost
Because without her I'll soon lose my mind
Alone, one storm, and over I'll be tossed

And in my fear, I fear her leaving me
When that one last leg of support is gone
How will I cope? And who, then, will I be?
That first day she's not here at the dawn?

Just an instant more to make memories
Then I captain a ship without a crew
Before I starve, forever lost at sea
One more day with hope. One more day with you.

((October 9th,2023))