Who Am I? Poem by Wesley Mincin

Who Am I?

I'm stuck on Earth with all I am
I'm nothing as of now.
I have to look for what I want
but I just do not know how.

I don't know if what I want is here
or if it does exist
Sometimes I feel that all is wrong
and all this is amiss

I sometimes don't know who I am
or who I'm supposed to be
Yet who I was before this life
is what I need to see

I met two souls who showed me love
and taught me what I know
we promised to be friends for life
just like those lives ago

I loved those two with all my heart
and still I love both dear
However, when I thought of them,
I saw the end was near.

They told me that when the time comes
I'll fight hard at their side
A fate I felt when I was born
a fate I shall abide

And when that times comes possibly
Death will scratch my name
I won't pass on like heroes do
for glory and for fame

They said my time was not to come
till long after the fight
They said that in my future they saw
prosperity in sight

Both are beacons for the spirits
whom have not passed on
They've been that way for centuries
and at the time of dawn

Yet now I feel that something's wrong
something I have missed
A truth that I'm unaware of
something that is amiss

They could have lied but I doubt that
but now where do I stand?
There's something missing in this life
I don't yet understand

I fear that all I believed in
is all a mythic dream
All I thought once reality
is not all that it seems

What if the Spartan didn't live
what if he wasn't me
I worked off of that ancient idol
to be what I want to be

My knowledge of my past I guess
Is maybe irrelevant
but when I know not who I am
It becomes relevant

This is not my last life on Earth
there will be more to come
But first I need to search my past
to know what I'll become

We all have purpose in our lives
I want to know why I'm here
If Taija's spoken words are lies
that's what I truly fear

...what if the day comes and I am,
without a hand to hold?
will my death come without content,
being lonely, failed, and cold.