When You Feel Like Dying. Poem by Saii Lynn

when you feel like dying death never comes. Why is that? Why cant it just come and take me right now? it will be so much simpler that anything that could happen right now. but who am i to kid, i dont want to die i just want everything to be ok. That isnt possible not right now. not ever again.One sentence can change everything. That is exactly what i did. Disappoint from all. weakness from me. I try to be strong but it just isnt happening. It may hurt her but it has almost killed me. I wish it would have but life isnt as kind. His face was the final blow. that killed me in so many ways just not in the way i wished. I ruined it all but it was never really fixed in the first place. Just let me be. let me die and no one will have to worry again.