What If I Were To Die Poem by Skylark Woodrow

What if I were to die,
Leave this life behind,
Say goodbye to all the monsters in my mind,
Let this body go,
Surrender to the undertow,
Fall comatose to the pain that plagues my life?
What if I were to give up all I have been fighting for,
Finally shut the door,
Bring an end to all the anguish,
Make it be no more?
Then would I be free,
Released from these chains that bind me,
And safe from this hell within me?

I need something to ease this pain I can't deny,
Something to fill the void inside.

God, I need you!
I need you to fill me with your love and comfort,
Wrap your arms around me,
And whisper to my spirit that you are here with me;
Even in this darkness,
Even in this pain.
God, give me a reason to live,
Breathe your life into me,
Show me that someday it will all be worth it;
Because, God....
I'm struggling so hard just to survive,
And I don't think I can make it,
I don't want to make it.

(2017.1.18,2017.9.13)