Untitled Poem by Courtney Caine

look can I see them
the dreams that fade away from my sight
the fears have come back
am tired of going on
i want everything to stop
the pain to much
I forget how to breath
as everything builds up
running as fast as i can
but never able to out run it
i pray for night to come
so everything disappears
hope for the stars to show them self to me
praying for that wish on that start will come true
wishing that everything in my head would go away
wishing that all the voices would leave me alone
wishing that everything i have seen would leave so you could stop crying
morning comes but i don't want to wake up
i don't want to wake up and live another day
day in and day out
the pain gets worse then the day before
everything starts to come together
and all i want to do is find a dark room
to hide from it all
never to see and feel that again
they broke me
all i wanted was to be held
to be fixed
to be loved
and they hurt me
broke me
now that i have seen it
i know i should have never trusted them
but i did and i cant help that now
but i have to go on
i cant look back
can't let it break me again
can't let it bring me to tears again
start over make everything knew
but i cant everything went wrong
theres no going back no fixing
i lay there broken
unfix able
you let them in to deep
so deep it hurts to breath
you keep saying
just keep breath keep going
you can make it
it not as bad as you think
just get up
you can do this
don't let them
see they hurt you
don't u dare shade another tear for them
they are not worth it
your stronger then this
show them how strong you are
show them you don't need them
that you can make it on your own