During all the years of correspondence I have actually been courting you with every bit of romance available.You (for all the reasons we've discussed)have shared many times, in many ways that being together was not possible.I feel like a damned idiot for not wanting to get your message. My desire to be with you (although real to me)was never going to happen.
At the very least we have been pen pals...and at the most I have been like your older brother. This is far from what I wanted.
Fate has a way of playing tricks on the gullible, no matter what the intentions...
All my hopes and longings to live happily ever after with you have been but a dream with no basis in reality.
...
Read full text
You have made it clear that you are exactly where you need to be with Jim and the love you share with him.It seems I have been in denial of the simple fact that you are where you want and need to be.... Love makes sometimes fool as well as wise Sometimes imperfect as well as perfect .......