Trance Poem by Angela Bontle Ditumiso

I don't recall the last time I fell headfirst in love
And wasn't in some kind of trance
It holds its breath blocking out the pain
Its stillness brings along this euphoria unexplainable
It's like being in some kind of Elysium

I don't recall the last time love wore off like a drug
Wore off all at once
And heart wasn't clenching with pain
Pain that was always there
But not always felt
Heart attempting to beat, only to juggle all the broken pieces
No, I don't

And that's why I'm scared to love again
I know I'll be left writhing in pain
When love finally finds reason to walk away
I know I'll break myself when I fall, I always do