Today I Die Poem by Kelvin Rush

I've sorted out the money the pain and the worry
The heartache and all the goodbyes
I've spoken to the angels and cleansed my mind
I've laughed joked and cried

I've flown like a bird and crashed down to earth
I've cherished all the warmth and love
I've walked for many miles and seen such joy
I've been blessed by the stars above

I've polished my medals made peace with the devils
Released all the fear and shame
I've been violently sick lost my hair ended conflict
Kissed my mum and ran naked in the rain

I've seen most of my dreams ripped apart at the seams
I've faced ridicule and lost all control
I've been cruel and unkind felt deaf dumb and blind
Disenchanted and at war with my soul

I've embraced all the sadness the hatred the madness
The violent the wild and insane
I've witnessed the sorrow the hopeless tomorrow
The boring the dull and mundane

I've wrestled with guilt destroyed all I built
Examined the meaning of life
I've educated myself gave away all my wealth
Walked away from my children and wife

I've been part of a story the loss and the glory
The suffering that's innate in us all
It's been a magnificent ride with God on my side
And now I must answer my call

As I walk to the light and drift out of sight
I feel blissful as I turn to stone
Into heaven at last no future no past
I've finally made it back home