This Craving To Disappear Poem by Sarah Mkhonza

Help me get rid of this craving to disappear
For the feeling of joy eludes me
When I look at the rainbow
And envy it its beauty
For my idea of the beautiful
Is not sky high.

It still sits on its laurels
And calls out to make up to
Cover my weak points
So the man who lusts for me
Can drool in the mouth

My idea of beauty renders me
Loved the way I want for I still
Believe lovers walk on the sand
And make angels with wings lying down.

This facing the world with false
Love leaves me wanting to touch
The rainbow and ask it how it did it
To hang up in the sky with a beauty
That leaves men drooling while
I look up with my mouth agape
With neither youth no long legs and
A hair style that can get these god
Forsaken beings to look my way.

They say beauty is the eye of the beholder.
Where is this beholder who keeps all the beauty in his eyes?
For I am beholden only to such a one
And seek him in every internet bar
Where the socialites of the world
Have as a follower only meaningful

As a number to brag about. Hence this craving to disappear
For I am already invisible.