There's No Tommorrow Poem by Nunam Lawati

Uncertain about what's going to happen next
And Perception of things that are not even there
I am tired of forcing myself,
showing people what i want them to see,
And all the confusions i am between are
Now ones that are equally desirable
How can i be so cold?
How did i end up to be the cause of my own despair?
These severe dejection leaving me
With only scars on my body
Will it be okay with these medications?
Will i just smile forgetting how lonely i can feel
I am unaware about how much this heart can take
I am aware that this suffering shall not end
So I have to keep on living making each one my last day