The Strength To Say Poem by Sam Fischer

All the things I've wrote,
All the words I've said,
Haven't meant a thing,
You're still stuck in my head,
I haven't seen you since wednesday last,
Or spoken for 9 weeks,
But something about you keeps me thinking,
Thoughts of you they leak,

I'm sure you're back with the ex,
Or seeing someone new,
All I want is to hug the person,
That makes me feel renewed,
I hope that soon this feeling will pass,
Moving through the pain,
Forgetting about the one I need,
Ultimately for my gain,

Thoughts of you springing to mind,
I push them all way the down,
Otherwise in this deep regret,
I may quite possibly drown,
It's no use pretending I'm not mournful,
I want to see you now,
I'm planning to make it happen soon,
Thoughts of where and how,

Courage to show you what I write,
I wish I had that strength,
But even to write a card to you,
Takes me quite a length,
I hate myself for being this way,
Starting and stopping this blurt,
Pushing past what I feel,
The anger, pain and hurt,

Still I find myself circling,
Around the way I feel,
Perhaps I need to hear the truth,
To begin to heal,
If you hate me it'd be easier,
I really wish I knew,
But the courage to ask you I don't have,
So this mess has inevitably ensued.