‘' The Past, I Don't Want To Redeem ‘' Poem by Bri Mar

In social circles, I'm but a beginner,
All of a sudden, I feel like a winner,
I've been invited to a Christmas dinner,
I'm like the cat who got the cream.

To a family outing I've been invited,
The very thought has me excited,
How it makes me feel delighted,
My life has started to gleam.

Though I never caused the strife,
My children left with my ex-wife,
Those kids I lost, now want back in my life,
My reaction has been extreme.

I've been alone now for many years,
All of a sudden, the dark mist appears,
Do I want to wipe away those tears?
It's affecting my self-esteem.

What will I do, what will I say,
Will all go well, will it be okay,
Though excited, what will I convey,
Will they want me, as part of their team.

Despite reassurance, there's something wrong,
Though I tell myself I must be strong,
I feel as if I don't belong,
I'm caught up in a terrible dream.

After years of being ignored,
It's hard for the past to be restored,
Though my decision may leave them floored,
I don't want to be part of their scheme.

I decide to decline their invitation,
It's causing too much consternation,
It would cause me too much aggravation,

‘' The Past, I Don't Want To Redeem ‘'