The Loveland Poem by Hassan Alamgir

It's 4: 30, a midnight, even a bit ahead, my heart is aching, it feels the burden of abandonments, a bit heavy, I am sleepy but it has been sleepless for a long time, restless and numb!

It's cold here outside and the world inside is a bit more colder; heartlessness, soullessness, mindlessness! The silence is even loudest! Crowded!

Eyes aren't seeing! All pain and pinches! I hope it will vanish but every pain leave the scars; the scars then a permanent thing! But it's love! It's ok when it comes to the wonderland of love and care! Your world is colorful! It's flowery! Beyond and above!

I was counting on my fingers. It was the start of July, twenty twenty four! Maybe June fifteen or back when it started! You had been there even for a long ago, but there was darkness all around in academic world, couldn't manage to see the light in you!

One-day, then your thoughts and your perception of reality and your strong subjectivity appealed my intelligence when you said: we grow with the time, we get to know the very new things while life goes on, we learn together, we can't give it a comparison, it's all natural, and some other beautiful kind of stuff!

It was I think 2023! When your life philosophies appealed me! It was all subconscious then! In July,2024 if I am not wrong, your blink of your deep eyes during our trip questioned my deep spirits, and asked me if I have that capacity to love! I was having my glasses, I chose to have them and there was some love logic behind that! I saw the beauty in you! Soulfulness! The lovely bones! Introversion! Extroversion! Ambiversion!

And this didn't stop! The journey is still there! Here and there! Above and beyond! Top and bottom! All around! Everywhere! Continuity....

One-day, I called you to unlock the door! I thought you'll be visiting me all alone and I'll be having some moment of comfort and some sigh of relief and some true positive energies!

Then, I don't know when, but it got so closer and even more intensed with the passage of time! And, then, the few nights back you had been in my dreams once and twice and I wish to have you again!

It made me more conscious and cautious! It's kind of some knock, knock, knock! My heart started getting some true sense of comfort and peace!

But tonight, it is aching! I deleted the Instagram as well! It's out of control! It seems so! Pain is there! But I can't afford anymore that pain! I need some sincere advices, some discussions, some clarity, some closeness, some tastes, some touches, some gravity, some magnetic force!

It's been a year now; the journey is so long! I interacted with you all consciously, subconsciously, and unconsciously! I felt your warmth! I don't feel good to see you doin everything all alone! I also need some strength! Some positive vibes! Some good energies!

Earlier, I wrote you some love letter that did go unanswered, but it's ok, it's love! It's Loveland!