Stop It! Poem by Jennifer Gordon

Stop It!
Don't call me that.
Enough is Enough!
I want to End this!
Here.
When? Right Now!
I want you out of my mind.
I am sick of this pain coming from my eyes.
I am through with this $hit!
No more pain enough of it!
It is time for an ending.
I want all this pain to just leave.
Whenever I try to get rid of the pain it always comes back to you.
I need you here with me,
you keep the monsters calm in my head.
You make me feel alive when I feel like I'm dead.
you change me.
is it for the worst? or for the best?
I don't know yet.
But I am sitting here.
Feeling all the feelings that you brought on.
and I don't want you to stop calling me beautiful.
I don't want you to disappear.
I want you right here.
Lying in my bed with me
looking up at the beauty of the blank stars on my ceiling art.
I want you to wash away the cold that took over my heart.
I want you!
You for you and only you.
I don't want those chicks hanging around.
I don't want to hear you talk about them.
I want you.
But I am too scared to stand up and stake my claim.
you are mine and mine alone.
That is what I want.
I want you to stake your claim on me.
I want you!