Starting All Over Poem by Adedolapo Olisa

I'm upbeat this minute
next I'm so minute in happiness
little small things make my cup full of fury
He did not even say sorry
I've been battered, almost murdered
yet I still love in order to show Jesus through me
but this little i hold tight and make grudge from it

I'm thinking- How can he slap my lips?
I'm saying- I don't get angry easily- but I just did!

Settling down, i then see
the truth about me
I am a man, a sinner at that
Noone can take care of it all
there always remains a flaw

I'd better search the flaws in people
and determine if it is one i can put up with
than search for a flawless
because even though I might 'find' one
but indeed it is by my judgement and measure

Time always tells it
just the way it is
and that's why i can't rush in
i must wait, watch, weigh and warn.

Just like time has proven me wrong
after years of keeping away from anger
and thought - Oh, the lord would be proud of me
then BOOM! 'SORRY' made me swell inside
and shatters my thought of defeating anger for eternity

If i cannot trust myself to react as I want and be what I wished
then why think that someone is fit enough to achieve that feat
I'd open my eyes, unveil my mind and stay in light
that when I decide to choose, these factors will not defraud my happiness
after taking a second look at my real CHOICE.