Something I Look At-429 Poem by Smruti Ranjan Mohanty

SOMETHING I LOOK AT-429
BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY

I know
You are the only reality.
I love You, adore You, worship You,
Yet fail to know why my mind wavers—
Why I forget my relationship with You
And get entangled in Maya.

Know not
Why I run after Your affluence,
The world around me—
A dream, a shadow, a fleeting illusion.
Why do I look to my right, back, and left
When You are right in front?

Know not
Why I chase a mirage
When the perennial river of bliss is within me.
Why I go for an optical illusion
When the dazzling sun shines overhead?

Why this sense of incompleteness,
Alienation, and apathy
In the very kingdom of bliss?
Why this agony, frustration, fear, and
Waves of negative emotions
When You bathe me in the nectar of ecstasy?

My Lord,
I have tried and failed—
Moved one step forward
Only to fall two steps back
Thus this birth.

Tried all paths—
From non-dualism, qualified dualism
To dualism,
From devotion to knowledge—
But failed.

Nothing helped me,
For my efforts, like me, were incomplete.
Now I realise:
Nothing is possible without Your grace.

Grace me, My Father,
To break free from Your
Spellbinding grandeur
And be with You forever.

Smruti Ranjan Mohanty
India
18.6.2025
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