Solitary Confinement Poem by susette varga

Solitary confinement
Where i must be
Sorting my head out
Trying to make sense
Of what i now feel
Is there a future ahead
For you and i?
Is it all just
Pie in the sky?
If we are together
Again
Would we last
Even a year?
No idea
Tough road ahead
Is all i can see
Feel so confused
Empty and numb
No idea where
We are coming from
Communication
Finally began
Both reserved
Giving nothing away
Is this really how
It should be done?
Many thoughts spinning
Around in my mind
Yet solutions
I simply
Cannot find
Is there any love left
For the other?
I can but wonder
Maybe beyond us
To discover
Maybe no longer
Any real hope
Was our time together
Merely a farce?
Staying power absent
Would never last
Were we so fickle
We could not see
Fate threw us together
We were destined to be
Or were we
Innately aware
Intuition would guide us
To run with the pack
And roll with the punches?
Hiding away
In solitary confinement
seems the safest
Place to be
As being in love
Is so contrary
Recognition
Extremely conflicting
Addressing vulnerability
Very unsettling
Do i dare
Leave all to chance
Throw caution to the wind
Do not question
Acknowledge my vulnerability
Allow trust to
Embrace love's sweet mystery