So Confused Poem by M McParland

I am so very confused,
please God help me through.
My love might be mad at me
I can not tell because
all around me are confusing signals
and confusing words.

I feel so lost and oh so scared,
I wish my love were here
to hold me near and tell me
that she loves me and all is well.
I am confused and my head is spinning
in self loathing and fear of being hurt
by having reached for the stars.
I just want to lay down and sleep
feeling the warmth of blissful dark.

I am so confused and I think I even
may have made things worse.
I might just explode with great remorse.
I pray my love comes soon
so we can talk,
and I can tell her all about this
insane things inside my soul and brain.

I am confused and I want to cry,
I don't do that anymore
so into anxieties clutches I must go,
praying oh so hard that all will be well
and that she doesn't and won't hate me forevermore.