"Smile." Comments

Have you ever felt hopeless before? The type of hopeless where the strings of your heart pull. The hopelessness of failure like you can't do anything right. I feel that way right now. I feel like I've failed at everything I try... I failed my mother as a daughter, I failed my family by pushing them away and I just recently failed a health test though I studied all week. I decided to write this essay about failure because you asked me to narrate one of my big memories. I tried to think of something happy to write about but I usually only remember the bad stuff. So I'm going to talk about one of my biggest failures that none of my failures can top... my biggest failure was when I failed my baby brother as a sister....because I let him die. I remember it was December the first. My mom, brother and I just had birthday' s past by now, I just turned eight and my brother just turned one. I was in my Strawberry Shortcake decorated room when... "Serenity? ! " Mom yelled for me in worry so I ran into the living room to find out what was wrong. " Come over here and see if Unity responds to you."She was leaning down on one knee by his car seat sitting in front of the couch on the floor where a table should be. I walked over beside him criss-cross on the floor...
"Unity? " he looked at me helplessly like he was trying to say something but he couldn't...
"Unitttyyyy? " I called him again to see if he would smile or dance like he used to when I came around, but he didn't … he just stared at me, his eyes were shaking like they do when he was having a minor seizure.
" No he's just looking at me, his eyes are shaking though, " I told her as she came to sit next to me. "His lips are blue like he needs oxygen, I think we need to call the ambulance." We called his nurse, she came and checked his oxygen tube and machine and said he was fine, so we second-guessed ourselves and waited to see if he would snap out of it....but he didn't. So we called the ambulance and the closest hospital was Memorial and as we waited for the doctors mom decided to reach his father. I was left alone with my brother...something didn't feel right.
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