Sinking In Sin Poem by Compton Wright

When you're sinking...in complete darkness...is there a way to come back
To the surface...to see what lies above

Trying to truly comprehend what it means
to be righteous, trustworthy and achieve tranquillity.

Will I understand what ascension mean? Or to even experience serenity in this life?

In my youth I've only written my anchoring sins weighing down my soul and the pain that brought upon me when trying to free myself from this eternal prison but I've dragged my existence into the state of petrification...frozen by its insecurities

My bones aches for freedom from this damnation! I rather hear the scolding from God himself than to be stuck...hearing the whispers of the devil
This paradox of self hatred and self-acceptation...snickering, taunting and antagonizing...using my past to haunt me in my slumbers...screaming his convictions... proclaiming himself as my god

A moment's respite is what I request but denied...A prayer for divine intervention I pleaded but ignored with silence...but alas! I finally understand...I burden my soul's vessel with these mistakes...I had my chances of redemption but refused

So now I shall sink further and my screams will be muffled by air trapped bubbles...the visage of salvation escapes me...I only hope that God takes me in his temple...I fear that'll only happen if these chains of regret are lifted and I'll be free with these sinking sins...