Simple Words Just Don'T Say It Poem by Mandy Lee

Which one of us puts up the wall,
is it me or you?
Did I do something very wrong?
Just tell me what to do.

You act as if it's all okay,
but do you care either way?
I thought that we were friends,
if I knew what I was doing wrong,
I'd gladly make amends.

But then your tone is harsh,
you shun me far away.
Am I just a playmate?
I question everyday.

We used to be so close,
now we're near and yet so far.
Now you've got me thinking,
is this what friends really are?

A person I used to trust,
now inside I run away.
My world of colours,
has turned dull and boring grey.

You used to be the spark,
that lit up every day.
Now I can't tell which,
of us has gone astray.

I treasure your presence dearly,
but I don't know if I'm the same.
Because now I think
you see me as boring and just lame.

A burden at your heels,
that is what I seem to be.
I am the invisible dog,
that you never seem to see.

Just tagging right behind,
I am always there.
But in your perfection,
I am hidden in your flair.

You are the apple of everyone's eye,
the goal they set above.
You are the friend,
I grew to know and love.

But then I felt unneeded,
for you already seemed so whole.
Sometimes i really think,
I should just become a mole.

To be out of your way,
and out of your sight.
That way I'd not have to bother you,
in the cover of the night.

I miss being a counterpart,
an actual human to say the least.
To be able to talk freely,
and not chained up like a beast.

At every word and phrase,
I'm scared that I'll offend.
The one we view so highly,
the one I called a friend.

I feel like I am crumbling,
I am just a wreck.
She stands in the limelight,
always ever perfect.

I know I've heard of invisibility,
and feeling down and so low.
But I never thought,
that that was where I'd go.

I feel so awkward,
far-off and left alone.
Now when we talk,
it's a one-sided phone.

I wish that it would change,
to how it used to be.
So that we could talk,
And I could just be me.