Silent Wants Poem by Niko Nocturn

i want to draw.
but i know that i will go to deep.
i don't know if i'd make it back,
from that realm. i want to fall asleep.
sometimes i'm holding the pen,
wanting to draw.
it's dark in my room, but enough light for me to see.
outside there is a raven's caw?
is it morning already?
4: 36.
i lost track of it as i made this rhyme.
i feel bad for the thoughts i have.
i feel bad for not doing it.
i feel bad for wanting to give up.
ifeel bad for that i don't quit.