Siding With The In Looking Inside Out Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Never will I be
A mass desirable entity
But I am alive and well
Being myself
One way or another


Delving out of every expectation
To be one on one with this soul
Sizing myself with every life growth
Trying to grow beyond my own self remorse
As I have always tried to put circles in rectangles
Into shapeless voids of trying to satisfy each and everyone


What do you really see?
This soul hopefully the most
Trying to walk my own direction
Without this anxiety tripping me along the way
With too many thoughts putting me in a whirlwind daze


But here I am
Alive and well
Who knows what tomorrow will bring
Just trying to exist is all



Just being myself
One way or another
Giving this spirit something to go on
When all is said and done


And then I can finally go home
Metaphorically speaking


And now what is next?
Who knows?
And that is something to always behold


After all, I am deeply mad in love with the unknown
At least it never judges me
Like so many vehement things too simply known


All I want is peace
Is that too much to ask for?
Love is great
But it seems to always come and go
Never staying at a unconditional pace
And always giving out vibes
Of so much meaningless remorse


Oh, well
Life is about going with the flow
Or whatever cliché one thinks of next


Just trying to live my life is all
As I try going further than I have ever gone before


So rid yourself of outward expectations
On the inside is where I always roam


I am only myself
Above, below and all
Siding with the in looking inside out
Is where I truly belong


Do you…?