.should I? Poem by Darlene Belcher

Should i rise today
or just stay fallen?

Should i breath right now,
or hold my breath?

Should i care today,
or stay numb?

Should i love
or stay alone?

Should i write
or scribble a mess?

Should i walk
or crawl?

Should i smile
or frown?

Should i make my own decisions,
or let others for me?

Should i try to walk father then before,
or have people mock me?

Should i try to put on a show,
or just show the true me.

Should i learn to accept that this is my home,
or live that nightmare over?

Should i show you how i feel,
or runaway and cry?

Should you care for a girl who brakes down and cries
when her family reminds her of what she'll never be.

I do not ask for much.
all i ask is what people tell me

All i do is what people tell me
but what if i made my own choice for once?

Should i cry and stay hurt,
or try to laugh and smile?

Whats it gonna be,
you tell me
since thats all ill ever be forced to be
because i cant chose for me.