Restarting Again. Poem by Shelby L

Knock knock,
The sound of the door
Opening is all i hear.
Then like that it is back
The pain that finally left.
So near i thought
One of those pain free days.
I had hope just for a minute
That it may be true.
Boy was i wrong
And its back with more then ever.
I sit silently in my room
Waiting for it to be over.
I new though
That it would last forever.
The pain i have is not easily fixed.
So i smile and laugh as the day goes on.
Aat night though
Its all different.
I cry to myself hoping it to be over.
The sad thing is
That i can't show others.
For showing others the pain inside
It would cause mom to worry
And i wouldn't be able to calm her.
So for now ill just hold to myself
Carry on day to day
As i have for so long.
Maybe one day
Someone can see it in my eyes
The pain i hold prisoned in my heart
And set it free.