Reflections Of Regrets Poem by Umasree Raghunath

24 Jul 2025
Reflections of Regrets
Past is done, dusted and gone
Yet it haunts, like a living ghost
Every day has been truthful to its core
Yet, looking back feels that was better to adore
Letting go of a child as a young mom
Haunted me for ages as situations changed
I know why I did what I did then
But the pain was deep and wound tense
Letting go of a love that became solace
In the moments of uncertainty and pain
No decision was easy, but regrets deep
Making me end up in nights to weep
Letting go of a house, that I always felt mine
As a new bride, where I felt life could be fine
Fire that raged my hopes, and dusted my spirits
I had nothing, but leave the place for peace
Letting go of my comfort zone, every single time
To push beyond horizons and save every dime
I did anything and everything possible under the sun
Life was nothing but struggle, yet a challenging fun
Letting go of my dream of becoming a lawyer
To take up things that brought me roof and food
I chased that childhood dream but could never take it up
For in life, man proposes, and God disposes and we give up
Letting go of my self-respect and pride
As I had to do things mean and beyond the truth wide
I hurt many, in the process, my own family and friends
But what hurt the most, is the self-harm that kept ends!
Letting go of an onsite career, in the cherished US dream
Unsure of what my man would do and my child's future to hold
Never an easy decision to keep packing back and shifting homes
But did that hoping change of place and time, would make things better
Letting go of a comfort zone, of being a leader cherished
Recognition, fame, respect, money, comfort to leave behind
In the quest of something bigger, something brighter,
Something new, and something felt more sensible that particular day
Letting go of good health, chasing deadlines that didn't matter
Those milestones that ended in each health scare
Hours in front of the tech gadgets, calls, projects, people
Overwhelming rush and noise in life that created nothing but chaos
Letting go of that wild big career position, as I had to make choices
Whether to be alive with good health or die with unknown wealth
Gone with it, the fame, the money, the position, the power
Pushed me to the cubicle of silence, simple work and simple life
Letting go of not just my dreams but my daughter's cherished abroad study
For I feared the return on the money, that would be costly
The guilt of not doing what she wanted, crazily made me die everyday
Feeling like a failed parent, who could not fullfill a child's study dream
Letting go of her being just my daughter, and get her married
To the man of her choice, but not at the time of her want
Pushes me to the anxious nights, worrying if she is fine and alright
Fearing my mistakes and choices not wanting to drain her life
Letting go of the country, the city, the home, the people I adore
Taking up things in a far away land, again in search of peace
Of hope to build a financial safety net, a chaos less life, a hope
Yet, the train of regrets, seem to be non-stopping, crying in sleep
Letting go of everything that mattered the most, as I assumed
What seem to be the issue, is that I had let go one thing strong- self-love
The love for myself, my happiness, my health and my hope and miss
Probably, it is something you should never let go in life to sleep in peace
Letting go, now of the past that pains, the train of regrets
Leaving behind the derailed life, that pushed you to tears
Letting go, now of the life, that you left behind, the wisdom and wise
Time to leave behind the past, that's long gone and stop the fears
Now, it's the time to let go!
The past that no longer belongs
The fear of the future that is not yet lingers
Build that bygone faith, that would move mountains
And let the life build its love, hope and peace fountains
The reflections of the regrets to be forgiven, to calm your inner self
The lessons not to be forgotten, so you carry the essence within you
Forgive the people and places that had hurt you deep
Prayer, hope, faith, and positive mindset and good health to leap
Talk to the Almighty every night sharing your burdens to weep
That will make your day better, and bring in peace as you sleep!

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