Reckless Poem by Ellen Rose Guilaran

I am a bit reckless
but I've decided not to keep it in
And be in my bareness

Lights overhead flicker
As pacing around the upper floor
With past hurts making me sicker

Abrupt rain poured outside
As if heavens pouted at me
Fates saw what was inside
The house on the upper floor they see

I knew how to dance to music
But never to dance with emotion
As if I was not being so chaotic
Tears ran faster in motion

I contemplate of the friendship I make
And they never saw the image
As I try and try to give than to take
And to reveal my mirage

I am not who they see me
I am not comfortable
You do not love me
You judge as I am affable

Don't try to work things out
If they did not work out now
Maybe in time when secrets out
And we're older and better we know

I'll keep the friendships I made in my heart
Because some are worth keeping
And lost forever, like some art
Than when I'm in the future weeping