What is given is not good enough for her.
To accept what is given is just simply what
too many other people have done.
She has to make herself feel Very Special.
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This is how she feels! ! ! ! ! Thanks for sharing this poem with us.
I think she is just going along with what other people do to feel " cool" and " in on it" and doesn't really understand a thing about what she feels and doesn't really feel at all.
To get under the subject's skin we see it is very thin.
Interesting analysis.