Psalm 4 - My Overwhelming Doubt Poem by Boston Kelley

Lord, I know what Your Word says
is true, so why do I still doubt?
I recite Your Truth over and over,
yet it does not affirm me.
It drives me to further suspicion,
as if what You say is too good to be true.
Is not what You say too good to be true?
Who could fathom such a loving, merciful God
who opens his arms to all?
Who could believe in a God who supplies every
need and is always there for you?
Is it possible to believe in Someone
who knows you better than you know yourself?
Can you doubt a God who forgives all sins
no matter how dark they are?
My God, I cannot help but be afraid and
doubt the truth of Your Word.
Despite how I have seen You move,
why does this doubt still persist?
I once was so close to you, fully enveloped
by Your Love,
now it feels so far away, and I am only
waving my hands in empty air.
You tell us to not trust our own abilities,
but it so tempting to rely on my intelligence.
I feel confidence swelling within me, Lord,
ready to give way to pride.
Protect me from pride, God, so I won't
put my judgment above yours.
Your Ways are higher than mine, so why
should I believe I know better?
Doubt, flee from me, for you are not
welcome here.
I trust in the Lord and His promises
and as I have seen Him move in my life,
as long as I follow Him, He will do it again.