Please Hold Me Poem by Laura arwen

Often I dream
someone sings a
lullaby
I feel bad
and helpless
I feel broken
all day
I feel alive
only when I
read and write
I need to
save money for
my future home
and life
I need to
find the courage
to live alone
and do what
I like to
do
I feel hopeless
with my disorder
I need the
silent grace
I'm determined to
be different and
full of hopes
Sometimes I'm unable
to cry
I don't want
to show my
emotions
Sometimes I think
it's better I
live in the
damnation
I pretend to
have the complete
silence around me
I feel broken
all the time
I feel altered
when I don't
write or I
don't buy something
I'm afraid to
smile and to
live beautiful moments
Rarely I dream
to live in
a silent kingdom
I hope to
live alone soon