Once The “happy May” Poem by Fatima Latif

Everything was okay in way,
Best as one could be,
I remember, I was a “Happy May”
My face had the biggest smile,
Thought, problems were away a hundred miles.
Suddenly, the weird feeling turned back,
Depression went on its peak,
Trying to fight with me,
Forcing me to change from who I wanna be
Just because, the day finally came.
One! I was afraid of, and didn’t want to come along
The news pops up, goes up as a fame
I had to smile, deep inside crying alone.
The time has come
We have talked about it, many times before
But time is now,
So I fake a smile, and turn away.
I must leave everything I know.
They brought me here,
Where I see happiness no more,
Why did this had to happen.
Nothing was in my control.
My head, simply a mere egg in their hands
I look up “ why did you bring me here, to this unfamiliar land? ”
All they say, “ You are here for your own good”
Good? ? ?
Good that I can’t go back home,
From where I came from?
Good that I can’t see my loved ones?
Can’t even see the road which would lead me back?
Good because now all I have is the memories from the past?
They say, “You have to give it a try, at last”
“It’s for my great future”
Future?
Future, with no friends who used to act as my tutors!
“You’ll have a life as colorful as a rainbow, with no shades of grey”
All I could do, simply pretend myself as once again the“ Happy May”
“It’s the best beginnings of our lives”
For me, may sometimes end in sorrow
But even on the darkest days,
I have a hope, the sun will shine tomorrow.
I will finally see the road which leads back home.
I won’t even once think, just make a run,
Alone on my own, a path yet unknown.