Ode To My Daughter Poem by Anya Garcia

Once my daughter was so ill I almost thought I would lose her...these were my feelings on just the thought, she was hospitalized for a week, she got it over it....GOD do I love her!

For 4 days and 4 nights, I watched over you, waking in a panic!
To check on you, If I dozed off to sleep
I could not be at ease.

My mind wandered through horrible thoughts of me losing you, me
never having you in my arms again, the pain I felt was so deep, I had to remind myself it wasn't real.

Your sorrow was my sorrow, your agony was my agony,
All that you felt I felt
I wanted to magically heal you
So that I could see a smile on your face and take you out of this place.

Such nervousness over took my body
somehow I was strong without being strong,
I would never breakdown crying at your bedside
only while you slept.
All that mattered was your health,
your well being
I drove myself crazy thinking about all the rest.

I held your hand in my hand,
and hugged you so tight,
as I looked into your eyes.

Terrified of never hearing your laughter or
the sound of your footsteps
I realized something that I did not feel until now

That with you there is no me, I will go on living
but a living corpse, like a flower that withers
without sunlight, I will be in a nightmare where I am falling
through the darkness hoping to hit ground,
only I don't, I just continue falling
with feeling of anxiety and uncertainty,
searching for the escape but it never comes,
I just keep falling.

And as we get home, I look at you and you smile
It is when I know that GOD gave me a blessing,
a statement that there is good in me
through you.

How I love you so! whatever you do, wherever you go
our hearts beat together as you continue to grow
For you I SING, LIVE & BREATHE!
You are my happiness, the only air I need.

Mommy loves you Danae....

(10/2007)