My Promise To God In The Pleading Of A Sinner Poem by Christen Kuikoua

If I have found favor before Your sight,
O Lord, incline Your ear to my pleading.
In my despair I am lost;
I know not where to turn
nor whom to speak to but You.

Fear surrounds me;
I lift my eyes only to You.
Lord, I am terrified
the weapons raised against Your people,
the blood of Christians crying from the ground.

I am undone and at fault
Lord, help me!
My transgressions rise like smoke before You,
my iniquities are more than I can bear.

In Your mercy save me;
for the evil one desires my soul,
to destroy me for righteousness' sake.
I have spoken Your name with my lips,
yet my heart has not held You in fullness.

Lord, have mercy on me;
for I know I am a sinner,
and without Your grace
I will not stand.

Here I am,
standing between life and death.
Though life is set before me,
yet I choose the path of death.

I am broken.
I am shattered.
I am empty.

I have befriended many sins;
they cling to me as brothers.
If You do not save me,
I will never make it.

O Lord, have mercy.
God of my fathers,
remember Your covenant with David;
do not let sin consume me.

I am at the edge of the grave
I am as one already dead.
If You do not save me,
I will surely perish.

In my wandering I was at fault;
my error opened the door to darkness.
Demons rose against me,
though my soul resisted.
Lord, rescue me.

Let my life be a testimony
that man may walk with God
and live in harmony on the earth.

Save me,
that the nations may praise You.
Lead me;
do not let my feet stumble,
lest the enemy mock Your name.

Deliver me;
erase my faults,
that the accuser may find no charge against me.

In my weakness, strengthen me;
in my plenty, rule over me;
that all I do
may bring glory to Your name.

Let praise never leave my lips.
O God Who hears His children
hear me
in the fullness of Your mercy.

Remember me,
before it is too late.
Remember me,
that Your word may be fulfilled in me.
Remember me,
that my soul may not perish.

O Lord,
Your beloved cries out.
Your child trembles in anguish.
For wickedness abounds,
and I fear I will not stand.

Yet in my agony I rejoice
knowing that You sit on the throne;
wickedness shall not reign forever.

So help me, O Lord.
Teach me to serve You
in truth and in spirit.
Let me love You
as though my very life depends on it

Save me from the enemies of my soul,
who thirst for my eternal death.
Lift up Your holy sword;
destroy every trap laid for my ruin.
Scatter every plan formed
to bury me.

My help comes from the Lord.
O Lord, save me.
O Lord, rescue me.

Wash me,
that I may be whiter than snow.
Clothe me in righteousness and glory.

Then my mouth
shall forever sing Your praise.
My soul
shall never see Your wrath.

Remove my name, O Lord,
from the book of death;
engrave it forever
in the Book of Life
until I behold Your face,
O my Beloved.

Amen.