My Hands In Yours So Lead The Way Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

Blinded by the light that once held so much fear
My hands are going numb but I'm going for the ride
My hearts pounding and my tears are held back
Because something tells me they will not be shed
But deception is quick to change my judgment
I pray this time my instincts are right
I'm falling head first and blind all at the same time
Take my hand and show me to never be afraid
Should I cower like I have done so many times before
Should I isolate my emotions and never let them show
Something tells me to go with what I feel
But my heart holds an eternal fear
My body shakes from past wounds inflicted upon me
My eyes still stained from the countless tears I've shed
Yet something tells me to face this first hand
Let my self go and let my guard down but should I
Should I listen like I never have before
Pushing away what my heart thought was right
Out of fear I might achieve something worth fighting for
So many times have I let my heart go
Just given in to how I felt in hopes I would fine the one
And that my heart would be fully healed and full of bliss
But each time it crashed and burned by my side
Taking countless months to patch up the scars
They may not be visible to the eye but they do burn
They still bleed on occasion but the wounds are scabbing now
But light still sparks in a little hope
But hopes have died time and time again
So give me the answers I so desperately seek
Should I fall once again, and never look back
Or keep up my shield and take a while to let them die down
I'll hold out my hand in hopes that you'll lead me
And show me which path is the right one to choose
But betray me and be harmed for my heart cannot bare
Anymore scares to the already mangled love
Trust is with you and trust is what I'll go by
But you will be the one to show me if my instincts are right
Or will they be my undoing all over again