My Feelings Are Like A Wild Fire Poem by mona martinez

the person i see is,
strong-willed, smart, creative person,
when i write and express myself,
but inside i don't feel nowhere close,
i feel like i don't have much control,
as i would like in my life,
i feel out of place,
like i'm doing everything wrong,
i feel lost,
i feel confused,
i feel like i have no say,
on what is going on,
because it feels like i'm messing with fire,
there not much i can do to control it,
it going to keep burning,
whether i want it to or not,
i feel that lost of control,
when my feelings become too much,
i choose to hide and just take cover,
not doing anything about the situtation,
i continue to only add to the fire,
rather than putting it out,
putting it out means,
i have to work through my feelings,
feel all of the anger, hate and pain,
i choose to run from than face it,
i hate feeling anger,
at times it feels so wrong,
i hate to feel hate,
it's a sense of emptiness,
to feel the pain,
means i have to come to terms,
with everything that is happening,
hardest thing to do,
but avoiding it and pretending it not there,
is only hurting me,
more than i am realizing,
i continue to act,
because acting is the only thing i'm good at,
i don't know how to real,
and be who i am,
to let down my walls and risk being hurt,
is like swimming with sharks,
you have a good feeling,
but sometimes thing don't always go as planned.