'My Biggest Mistake' Poem by thomas coltrin

I swear to god I did not know
My thoughts about that simple girl
She was so innocent and pure
I hurt her deep inside he heart

And now she cries she doesn’t know
Why she acts a certain way
She wants to leave and run and go
Because she feels like she’s alone

I messed up and always cried
On my knees I deeply lied
At point and time in which it came
My world with god is now a game

I would go back and stop my self
Kill the body in which I stood
Just so I can take the pain
Away from her she live in day by day

So many years so many thoughts
She lives inside the exact same house
And sees her nightmare walk by her
The one that simply tortured her

Her emotions filled with pain
Or is it I’m the one who’s drained
Of feeling guilty everyday
Of this one mistake that I have made

I look at her as she walks by
Another piece of my soul has died
I didn’t mean to hurt you
Please tell me what to do

You’re my sister and I love you
Ask me anything il tell the truth
People say that you did forgive
But somehow I cannot believe

I torture my self in my head
I wish somehow I was just dead
Forget the feelings that I have
And put the bullet in my self

Maybe, maybe just some how
You need to tell me it your self
That I messed up and u forgave
So I wont take this to my grave

What am I saying with out even thinking
How can you forgive wile you are hurting
I made a mistake and im willing to admit it
Forgive me I didn’t mean to do it