My Agnosticism Poem by Ian (John) McCleary (Son of the Cleric)

Though I was baptized and made my sacraments in the Roman Catholic church I never truly believed there was a God. I never believed in the Godhead. I never had what the church calls faith. I reject the official teachings of the church. I cannot believe what I haven't experienced for myself. I don't know what form we will take after we die or if there is such a thing as heaven.
I can't somehow pretend that I believe in any of this stuff. I can't.I can't do it
As long as there is no proof or evidence that supports the existence of God, then I will not go through the struggle of forcing myself to believe in any of it. I declare myself officially agnostic in my views on life. This doesn't mean I am living by another doctrine, it just represents the beliefs I have had more accurately.
Being aware that many people still (people in my family, friends) believe in God, I will avoid bringing up the subject of my agnosticism, and share only when I feel it seems right.
I believe many people, even those identifying as Christians are without knowing themselves very well, agnostics.
I become very nervous when I have to explain in my own words how I feel on topics like my personal beliefs about religion. I shouldn't have to think I must give an entire lecture on agnosticism or think I have to know it's philosophical origins and history front to back. I just have to state my views in a few words if the opportunity comes up, like for example 'My views about the existence of God are agnostic' or ' I don't share your beliefs in God'
If someone asks what that means I can just tell them ' It means some things are still uncertain and that we don't have the answers to everything'.