Love And Loss Poem by Katie Anon

When I think of you I feel gratitude, love and loss
These bring a mix of warmth and pain
They have not lessened year after year
But their intensity causes me fear

You were my rock, my teacher and my guide
In you I could always trust
You gave the gift of self awareness
Your kindness countering my distress

In you I learnt it was not all my fault
I began to hope I could change
The self hate began to wane
But the pain and hurt have remained

Your eyes, crinkles and beautiful smile
The warmth that radiated from you
I will never forget that waiting room
And the feeling when you came in

In your presence I felt safe at long last
A feeling that was so new to me
When I left, my heart broke that day
I still miss you more than I can say