Lost, Found And Lost Again. Poem by D.A. Woods

She only wants me when she is at the bottom of a bottle and them I'm forgotten the next day. She then retreats to her dark cave, where she's not so brave anymore, can't stand the light and has no more reasons.
Regardless of the promises we made,
- 'Going to see out this life together, stare at the stars forever'.
Do you know you've this kills me?
I don't know what's going on with you in your private room?

Now I'm talking to myself all the while there is nobody home.
How can you say you love me, need me and then disappear without a word?
This heart of mine is fragile as it is, I don't know how to find yours anymore - it's gone.

I guess I've just been a game for you to play my emotions with,
We've spoke about being together and how things will be.
Now it's I'll have to wait and see.
With all your changing seasons of your life,
will not include me.

Maybe if I knew all the reasons, maybe I could find another way.
Find another day.
Maybe we'll get it right next time.
Because right now nothing matters and nothing rhymes.

Now that you're broken down,
got your head back buried deep in sand.
Mine is on the ground,
I'm not talking or feeling so proud anymore for who and I don't know who for.
Who'll take this fragile boy by his hand?

I should have known I've been involved in a game,
When you argue at home then I'm played as a weapon to shoot him down,
I thought you wanted me all around?
Again, Your silence is a deafening sound.

One day I'm going to jump in the river.
Blindly drifting all on my own until I shiver.
I shall have to try and swim back home so I can be all alone again in my life,
where everything cuts deeper than any knife.
Today is the 12th of never.

I feel the storm of all our love is over,
only remember me when alcohol in a glass.
You left me on my own
guessing with no replies,
unhappy thoughts being forced upon my mind.
You didn't need to come and go,
if you don't find certainty now, then you never will.
You'll never be a part of me is what you show.

So if this is the long goodbye, I've got to try to be alone with my forever broken heart.
yours was never there just to play some twisted game.
I guess I'm to blame.
I made myself believe you all this time.
Loving me isn't a crime, they just make me cry and what for?
Because I believed that we were the same.