Losing Everything In The End Poem by Kevin Carney

When I close my eyes, you are all I see.
Never have I felt this way…
I just can’t see why you are all to me.
You go through day to day…
All I can do is believe.
Ask me a question about you and me.
I don’t think I can give you an answer.
I just don’t know where this is to be,
no one understands what is between us.
I just don’t think anyone would get it.
I got to be honest I feel the same way…
At times I understand it all.
Look at it this way…
Am in between the void of what’s real?
Or am I in the spot of total insanity to feel this way?
Will I be swept away in the flood of emotions I feel?
Can you look at me and take me aside and save me?
I am there for the taking if you really want me.
I know, I am not thinking clearly.
I have just burnt my last bridge in the name of you.
It might be the biggest mistake I have made.
I know I really won’t be able to turn back.
Even if I wanted to,
the damage has already been done.
Can you really tell me that this is a rational action?
Really I don’t think I know where I am going…
All I was looking for,
is someone who really cares.
I don’t think you are that one…
Yet I seem to be so drawn in the end.
Going nowhere and then…
There is always that possibility.
At times you hold me breathless,
you see that from time to time.
It depends on your mood that day.
Will it ever happen?
Your love comes through like a giant tidal wave?
I can’t say,
I don’t even know if it can ever happen.
If it does,
maybe then I will believe it was meant to be.
So changed I become,
ever since I met you.
I think you changed also,
I just can’t see really how.
Can we continue to go on this way?
Will it end anywhere?
Or just lose everything in the end?