Jamais Vu Poem by Eman Awad

I used to feel this way before,
and he used to make it all go away with smiles.
But by the time it got so sore,
feeling like we are seperated by all the miles.
And he's with me but yet he's far,
i can't seem to know who he is to me.
I lose the wish when i'm facing a star,
i can't understand how he's related to me.
I gaze upon his face for a long time,
and i lose the time navigating his features.
I feel like i'm about to ask if he's mine,
i just wonder that god made different creatures.
For i am a girl i find him strange,
but he's a human like me, a human that i adore.
And i wonder about destiny's arrange,
why is he the one that i'm really dying for? ?
It's how he's so far from me and he's my life,
it's the way i'm feeling before goodbye and after.
My heart was in such a weird strife,
and we end up losing every thing even a fake laughter.
I've been seeing him in my dreams,
and he was a life time i've lived once and gone.
He will always be the wildest of all my streams,
and still for a period in time, he was the one.
He is so strange for me i find him not,
i have no opinion in him at all but of his smile.
Such a beautiful smile, all that's he's got,
but it's enough to make me lose my self for a while.
Enough to make me get over all of that and go on,
feeling he's taking over me just to get over me.
And weakness in my heart made him strong,
to know, that i'll come back every time,
that i'm sorry and it's my mistake endessly.
I never knew him and his answers were silent,
i used to forget who he is though he's holding my hand.
No man is, but really he was an island,
that i drowned before i reach land,
and before i can even understand...