Its Not What I Am Today Poem by ritu gangele

its not what i am today,
i lost myself somewhere yesterday,
i remember i was not so proud,
now i stand lonely in a crowd,
when i was perfect i didnt took it so,
now im imperfect i dont wanna know,
its past that i can never forget,
its future that i never dreamed,
and present i am just worried about,
my life is what i never thought about.
its not what i am today
i lost myself somewhere yesterday.

its the inner me that wants to burst out,
but the outter me is just so scared to let it out,
the result is what i am worried about,
if it would be good, or so bad to live it out.
the past is what i can never change,
but still i keep thinking on the same thing.
i am so tired of pretending now,
so i have actually forgotten of who i am.
its not what i am today,
i lost myself somewhere yesterday.
and tomorrow is what i now behold
the only thing that i am worried about.
and theres no one i can share with,
they actually ran from the pretending me.
and now i live alone,
thinking what i exactly did wrong.