Its Not My Choice Poem by v.m.saraswathy munuswamy

i am born to dear souls
though its not my choice
i got four siblings
being fifth is not my choice
i looked at the world
behind your saree pallu
mother but you left me
to face the reality
which was not my choice
when i was hardly 10
started to grow
looking at my elder siblings
there was no love or bond
between siblings
though i had no choice
father you were suffering
with handful of adolescent
children and one small kid like me
looking at the waxing and waning
pondering over your responsibilities
father i saw you wailing and trailing
though its not my choice
self centered grown up children
bothered about nothing but their life
sucking your blood
day and night
pointing on your failures
just a sadistic pleasure
by your grown up sons
my father
you sacrificed everything
for your girl children
done all your duties
like educating, arranging for marriage
of your grown up two daughters
meanwhile i was just 14
but reminded you about
one more pending responsibility
though it was not my choice
when the house was sans
siblings, mother
but i was there to bother you
father i know you were
relaying just on me
but i ditched you
for the sake some other
though it was not my choice
i was chased and forced
to accept another
whether i was right or wrong
though it was not my choice
i shattered your dreams
dumped your morals and values
we had more arguments
never ending dialogues
on and on
finally decided enough is enough
you accepted
the man of my choice
granted us blessings and happiness
though you gave up the tug of war
father
i say even that was not my choice