It's Tearing Me Appart Poem by Autum Foster

I can't even begin to show,
And never will I let you know,
How I really feel for you,
It's tearing me appart,
My heart's in two,
I really need to let you go,
And this pain I will never show,
But if you just gave me a shot,
Please, love me? Love me not?
I try to be myslef with you,
But it's just something I can't do,
I don't know how I fell this hard,
But I can't stop, this feeling disbarred,
I can never openly say,
How I feel for you, or in what way,
You really mean the world to me,
How stupid can I be! ?
I've really tried to play my part,
But it's all going to end with a broken heart,
I'd rather be ny your side,
Than catching teardrops, trying to hide,
I'm really good at not letting it show,
I'm not so good at letting you go,
I really need to get over you,
But my every attempt just falls through,
I guess, all in all, this really sucks,
I can't forget those sneaky looks,
Our eyes meet across this space,
Your eyes catch mine, it's like a race,
Sometimes you really make me believe,
You want to stay and never leave,
But in the end, I figure it's lies,
But I have no proof, you have no ties,
You think so much of yourself,
I think so little of my health,
I smoke, I drink and I get high,
I really should wave you goodbye,
I wish I could make you see,
If only you could see me.