It Hurt Me Poem by Allysyn Bryant

“How do you really feel about me? ”
Innocent question. Honest answer I gave.
My anger rose, as did the pain
Although I could never say what for
Do I love him? Yes, with all I got.
Do I regret meeting him?
Life’s been better with him in it
Couldn’t imagine one without him
Yet still, I could never explain why it hurt me
Hurt me for him to doubt me
It hurt me

The question came as a surprise
Didn’t expect it coming
Have I set myself up for disaster?
Is he truly too good to be true?
Maybe so. Maybe not.
Either way, it hurt me.

He’s gotten close, closer the most
I wonder if he’s realized just how close
It isn’t something that can be said
Only known
He wasn’t just another boyfriend
He isn’t just a friend of mine
He was and is so much more to me
And it terrifies me to death
Maybe that’s why it hurt me

Not knowing what he needs to hear
I think I say the wrong things
All I know to say in the end is sorry
A girl may be, but this isn’t easy for me
It hurts me to open up to anyone
Like a bird’s first flight
Done wrong. I’ll fall and be crushed
Does he know he’s been closer then anyone?

Knowing me better then my own family
How do I explain how I feel…
In the way that he needs to hear?
Afraid to hurt him too, I pull away
Hurting him anyway
Love him I do. Knowing now isn’t our time
It hurt me to tell him I couldn’t
It hurt me to say I need time away
It hurt me to say he’s free to go
It hurt me to hear that in the end I’ve still hurt him
I don’t have the words that he needs to ear
No matter what is said or done
In the end it hurts me.

February 1,2008