Intrusion Poem by Ros Venn

Intrusion by Ros Venn

I
While reflecting on how things are going,
A voice interrupted my thoughts from flowing.
As sure as there is night at the end of day,
You return making an annual stay.
What is it this time that has brought you about?
I try my best to ignore you, making you shout!
You intrude upon my thought,
How many times have we fought?
I run to try and escape your voice.
It's not fair, do I even have a choice?
When the daylight fades,
Darkness cascades

II
My angel has taken a vacation,
Causing quite a complication,
You are no demon, that's for sure.
Maybe a beastly one, lacking grandeur.
Your voice, your voice is nails on a chalk board.
SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP. I'll be reassured,
Yes reassured, to know I can beat you,
It takes time, truly worse than a flu.
You suck all the enjoyment out of life,
Constantly, reminding me about the strife,
Making me think twice no thrice about each and every word,
I wish there was an off switch. A voice? my voice? absurd.

III
How can it be? Yes, how can it be?
The voice that repeats and repeats,
It is me, yes now I know it is me.
The voice mistreats me, it's me it mistreats.
Sure there is some foul creature there,
There's some exorcism that could be performed,
Something that could be a feature here,
Some cataclysm causing the mind to be reformed.
Tis a curse, a curse so abhorrent,
It makes me become a monster,
Loved ones feel the brunt of my torment.
Just free me free me from this imposter.

IV
Now I know the creature that is so loathsome,
The one that occasionally shouts things so morbid,
I am Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, I can be wholesome,
This intrusive voice of mine, it is mine to forbid,
Can I beat this? Can I overcome this?
I want to end on a positive note, I do, I really do.
I can feel bliss, even though I am so close to the abyss.
So I will be talkative, both inside and out, this is true